Kenya Moore Publicly Mourns Dog, Velvet: I thought I could do this, but I can’t.

Real Housewives of Atlanta’s Kenya Moore is speaking out for the first time, since losing her beloved dog Velvet. On last week’s episode, the usually up-beat ‘Gone With the Wind Fabulous‘ reality star, had a complete meltdown while the cameras were rolling. In short, her dog was attacked by a neighbor’s dog. Days after the episode aired, reports surfaced that Kenya staged the entire episode, faking her dog’s death. Kenya has yet to address those claims, but she did pen a lengthy blog post, opening up about her loss. She writes:

Perhaps for the first time in my life I’m at a loss for words. It’s very difficult for me to come to terms with the puppy love of my life not being here on my lap and by my side or in her little purse that she made her home.

I grew up my entire childhood and adult life without any pets. My grandmother who raised me didn’t allow it. I had never been a big animal lover.

Once driving home I rescued a dog in the street. It was uncharacteristic of me and everyone was shocked. It was a female yorkie who almost got run over by a car. I cared for her for about a week. She was well behaved and relatively quiet and followed me from room to room. I was at a very low point in my life emotionally and I enjoyed “Prissy’s” company.

Having Prissy compelled me to find a dog of my own — small enough to travel with because I was always on the go, and a puppy so that I knew its history and behavior.  I walked into the breeder’s and as soon as all the litter came out Velvet ran straight to me. She was so tiny, but she had the biggest personality!  It was love at first sight!

I remember taking so many notes from the breeder, because I had no clue of what I was doing.  When we got home she checked out every inch of her new home. We quickly learned about each other. Velvet and I were alike in so many ways. She was stubborn, smart, highly adaptable, strong, and bossy. As a terrier it’s in their nature to be protective of their masters.  You could not tell her that she wasn’t a Pitbull.  At two months old, she was the most beautiful little puppy I had ever seen, just big enough to fit in the palm of my hand.

I learned a lot from Velvet.  How to love something more than myself; How to be patient; And how not to throw the baby out with the bathwater. She was my soft place who melted me. She was my normal.  She was my laughter. She was my protector. She was my everything. She was my life and I lived for her and she lived for me.

I haven’t been able to tell my family or friends… I thought I could do this but I can’t my loss is too new and I cannot find the strength yet…

Thank you for your love and kind condolences.

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