Alicia Keys Struggled With Continuing 2nd Pregnancy, Recalls Telling Doctor: This Is The Worst Time Ever
Alicia Keys gets super real about motherhood in her upcoming memoir, More Myself.
The Grammy-Award winning singer, mom of two and wife of mega-producer Swizz Beatz confessed in her project that she had second thoughts about keeping their second son together.
She wrote, according to PEOPLE, that she wasn’t expecting to get pregnant with son Genesis Ali Dean in 2014.
“I wasn’t ready for this, which is what I told the doctor. ‘This is the worst time ever. I’m working on my next album. My husband just got into Harvard Business School. And I’ve been drinking—a lot.’ I left her office feeling so torn.”
“The music I was creating felt more important and urgent than just about everything. I’d have to put off its release for at least a year if I chose to have the baby.”
“While I was struggling over my choice, I went into the studio one evening and began listening to ‘More Than We Know,’ a song Swizz and I had written. The lyrics are about how we’re capable of so much more than we can ever imagine. My eyes filled with tears. How could I take away the potential for this beautiful child, this light that could touch others in ways I couldn’t dream of. For me, the song was a powerful message that I should go on with the pregnancy.”
She also told PEOPLE about her mother’s contemplation of terminating the pregnancy with the singer.
“It wasn’t until writing this that I realized, ‘Oh s—, she chose me’, even through all the difficulties. How would she ever know what I was brought here to do? In a way we are parallel, but I didn’t even know that.”