Machine Gun Kelly Talks Therapy Journey & Abusing Drug Adderall: I Went From Orally Taking It, To Snorting It – Now My Drug Of Choice Is Happiness
Texas rapper, Machine Gun Kelly, real name Colson Baker, 30 is opening up about his therapy journey for the first time and even talks about his former experiences with drug use. He says that now his drug of choice is happiness,
“Currently, my drug of choice is happiness and commitment to the art, rather than commitment to a vice that I believed made the art. I’m taking steps.”
MGK says that he had to separate his rap persona from Colson Baker.
“That’s the first time I ever went, ‘Hey, I need to separate these two people,’ which is Machine Gun Kelly and Colson Baker. The dichotomy is too intense for me.”
Machine Gun Kelly also says that he used to snort drug Adderall for a long time.
“Adderall was a huge thing for me for a long time, and I went from orally taking it to then snorting it, and then it became something where I was scared to ever go into a studio if I didn’t have something. I wouldn’t even step out unless there was a medicine man who was going to visit me and give me what I needed.”
Adding that he began to become dependent on the drug he shared:
“You’re telling yourself you can’t do this without that, when really it’s in you the whole time. If that pill did that for you, then everyone who’s taken that would just be making albums and writing songs. And so that limited me.”
Although fairly early in his therapy journey MGK says that he ha trouble keeping his mind still for 10 minutes.
“I’m still kind of ripping my hair out. Why am I not changing overnight? How am I supposed to meditate for 10 minutes when I can’t even sit in my own brain for two minutes without distracting myself by doing something? That’s really hard.”
The rapper adds that he is committed to being happy with his own self, and that is what keeps him going.
“The willingness to finally be happy with my own self has invited a much more vibrant energy around us than before.”
MGK talked about his drug addiction in 2018 on an episode of The Breakfast Club, where he alluded to the world trying to break him down, and him not having anyone to call. Which lead him to needing an escape, he says,
“The reality of situations is you can’t as a world expect to break people down constantly and not expect them to want some type of escape all right? I don’t have a mom I can call I don’t have a father I can call I don’t have my you know I’m saying like my like my aunt who was the last thing that I had is gone.”
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