Justin Bieber Reveals He Used Drugs & Security Would Check & Make Sure He Was Still Breathing, Wife Hailey Admits “Marriage Is Really Hard”

Justin Bieber Reveals He Used Drugs & Security Would Check & Make Sure He Was Still Breathing, Wife Hailey Admits “Marriage Is Really Hard”

Justin Bieber and new wife Hailey Bieber are getting candid about their marriage and lives as they pose on the cover of Vogue.

With this being Justin’s first interview in two years, he is ready to discuss what’s been going on his life leading up to the point of he and Hailey saying “I Do” in September 2018. Hailey also divulges about the realities of what marriage has been like within the first five months.

After being introduced by their parents, Hailey is direct about how their 10-year friendship, evolved into their speedy wedding.

During the time the pair dated before getting married:

Negative things happened that we still need to talk about and work through. Fizzled would not be the right word—it was more like a very dramatic excommunication. There was a period where if I walked into a room, he would walk out.

Hailey recalls when they rekindled their friendship:

One day Justin walked into Hillsong and was like, ‘Hey, you got older.’ I was like, ‘Yeah, what’s up?’ Over time he became my best guy friend. I was running around with him as his homie, but we weren’t hanging out [romantically].

Hailey’s thoughts on being married:

The thing is, marriage is very hard. That is the sentence you should lead with. It’s really effing hard. I was never a superfan, of him or of anyone. It was never that crazed, screaming thing. I didn’t think about it in any kind of way except for the fact that he was cute. Everybody had a crush on him. But for the first few years we had a weird age gap.

Hailey explains their relationship before they get married:

The common denominator, I promise you, is always church. By then we were past the drama. I just gave him a hug. By the end of the conference, he was like, ‘We’re not going to be friends.’ I was like, ‘We’re not?’

Although the two are seemingly involved in church, Justin explained how he doesn’t consider himself to be religious:

I wouldn’t consider myself religious. That confuses a lot of people because they’re like, Well, you go to church. I believe in the story of Jesus—that’s the simplicity of what I believe. But I don’t believe in all the religious elitism and pretentiousness, like people are better than you because they come to church, like you have to go to church and dress a certain way. I get sensitive when religion comes up because it’s been so hurtful to a lot of people. I don’t want to be thought of as someone who stands for any of the injustice that religion has done and does do.

Justin also discussed while on his last tour “Purpose,” he became depressed:

I got really depressed on tour. I haven’t talked about this, and I’m still processing so much stuff that I haven’t talked about. I was lonely. I needed some time. 

He also opens about his issues he’s had with people:

I’ve struggled with the feeling that people are using me or aren’t really there for me, and that writers are looking to get something out of me and then use it against me. One of the big things for me is trusting myself. I’ve made some bad decisions personally, and in relationships. Those mistakes have affected my confidence in my judgment. It’s been difficult for me even to trust Hailey.

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When he was using drugs as a coping mechanism:

I found myself doing things that I was so ashamed of, being super-promiscuous and stuff, and I think I used Xanax because I was so ashamed. My mom always said to treat women with respect. For me that was always in my head while I was doing it, so I could never enjoy it. Drugs put a screen between me and what I was doing. It got pretty dark. I think there were times when my security was coming in late at night to check my pulse and see if I was still breathing.

Why he no longer wants to pursue music & what matters to him the most now:

Just thinking about music stresses me out. I’ve been successful since I was thirteen, so I didn’t really have a chance to find who I was apart from what I did.

Who I am, what I want out of my life, my relationships, who I want to be—stuff that when you’re so immersed in the music business you kind of lose sight of.

His thoughts on sex:

I think sex can cause a lot of pain. Sometimes people have sex because they don’t feel good enough. Because they lack self-worth. Women do that, and guys do that. I wanted to rededicate myself to God in that way because I really felt it was better for the condition of my soul. And I believe that God blessed me with Hailey as a result. There are perks. You get rewarded for good behavior.

The dynamics of their marriage:

I’m [Justin] the emotionally unstable one. I struggle with finding peace. I just feel like I care so much and I want things to be so good and I want people to like me. Hailey’s very logical and structured, which I need. I’ve always wanted security—with my dad being gone sometimes when I was a kid, with being on the road. With the lifestyle I live, everything is so uncertain. I need one thing that’s certain. And that is my baby boo.

Read the full interview story here.