When I woke up in the hospital room in Nevada [in October 2015], I couldn’t move. I couldn’t talkI was trapped inside my own body. My throat hurt like hell. I looked down and I had all these tubes coming out of my mouth. So I panicked.
He says that when he woke up in the hospital, Khloe, whom he was married from 2009 to 2016, was by his side.
My ex-wife was there in the room with me. After all the s–t I had done, I was surprised to see her. Honestly, that’s when I knew that I was probably in bad shape.
was doing coke every day. Pretty much every second of free time that I had, I was doing coke. I couldn’t control it. I didn’t want to control it.
Odom quotes the late singer Rick James, describing cocaine.
‘Cocaine is a hell of a drug.’ It’s a hell of a drug. It will make you do things you never thought you’d do. It will turn you into a different person. It will put you in situations where you say to yourself, ‘How the f–k did I get here?’
He also revealed that he didn’t try cocaine until he attended a party in Miami at the age of 24. Later, he became addicted.
Anybody who’s lived a complicated, drug-infused life like I’ve lived knows the cycle — with women, cheating on my wife, sh*t like that. Nights when I should have been asleep. Nights when I stayed up sniffing coke. Lot of those nights.
The Queens native also relives the moment when Khloe accidentally walked in on him doing cocaine with another woman in a motel room.
I’m a millionaire. I’d made it out of Jamaica, Queens, and won two NBA titles. And I’m in a motel, with some random person, doing coke. But I just wanted to get high with this girl, and I had no other place to go. I couldn’t take her home. You know, I was being a scumbag. Nothing else I got for that. No excuses. No bullshit. That’s just the truth. My d-ck and my habit took me down all the roads that you don’t ever wanna go down.
He concluded by saying that he knew that he was close to death.
I shook hands with death. But you know what? Ain’t no coming back from that. Even though my funeral would probably be a good funeral, and there’d probably be a lot of people who hadn’t seen each other in a long time. But it ain’t time for that yet.