Tamar Braxton Speaks On Her Suicide Attempt 1 Year After The Incident: That Time Of My Life Was So Dark & So Heavy
Tamar Braxton is getting vulnerable as she opens up about her suicide attempt from last year and her battle with WEtv. 2020 was a hard year for many of us, including the Grammy-nominated artist and podcaster Tamar Braxton, 44. As previously reported, Tamar Braxton made headlines last year when news broke that she tried to take her own life on July 16, 2020. At the time of the incident, Tamar was reportedly home with her young son and her then-fiancé David Adefeso, who found her unresponsive, and she was rushed to the hospital.
During a recent interview with PEOPLE, Tamar opened up about her suicide attempt and where she was mentally at that dark time.
“That time of my life was so dark and so heavy. I didn’t see how I was going to come out on the other side. I didn’t even know that there was another side. But I chose to change my life.”
“Most people think, ‘Oh, she went to a hotel, probably took a bunch of drugs, was on a binge.’ It didn’t happen like that. It was just everyday life, trying to figure out how to get through the day.”
At that time of her life, Tamar was in the process of filming her own docuseries, Tamar Braxton: Get Ya Life!, for WE tv. She’s also been a part of her family’s reality TV series, Braxton Family Values, which also airs on WE tv.
Tamar has not been shy about speaking about her ill relationship with WE tv lately and how they treated her during her time with the network. In 2018, while filming for BFV, it was revealed without Tamar’s consent that she was molested as a child. During her interview, Tamar shared how betrayed she felt by WEtv.
“How it came out was very traumatic for me.”
“I thought I had successfully buried that part of me, but it was manifesting in different ways. It was coming out in how I dealt with things emotionally, how I looked at situations, how I conducted myself.”
Tamar also revealed that she wanted to do a positive reality series but the network would edit her in a bad light.
“After a scene, I’d watch it back, and it would be nothing like how it went down. They started piecing words together and sentences. I just thought that wasn’t necessary.”
“I wanted to do positive television.”
She added that when Braxton Family Values initially aired,
“it was about a positive Black family. That’s just not what it was anymore.”
Tamar told producers about how she was feeling but alleges they didn’t listen.
“I felt ignored. That’s when things really started to go downhill for me.”
“I still love television. but I’m definitely not ever doing another docuseries about my life.”
She said instead she is
“dedicated to being the best mom, the best person I can be. I am moving forward.”
In addition to that, the ‘Love And War’ singer shared her son, 8-year-old Logan Vincent Herbert, helped pull her out of the dark place she was experiencing.
“I didn’t want to continue being a disappointment for him. How can his friends’ parents respect me if this is what they see every day? I wouldn’t let my kid go over to a child’s house if this is what was portrayed on television. In my sickness, I thought that if I can take the embarrassment out of his life, maybe he would have a chance to have the best life.”
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