Lil Wayne On Attempting Suicide At 12 Years Old: I Knew I Had A Mental Health Problem When I Pulled The Trigger

Lil Wayne On Attempting Suicide At 12 Years Old: I Knew I Had A Mental Health Problem When I Pulled The Trigger

Lil Wayne is getting candid about his experiences with mental health and attempting to take his own life when he was 12 years old.

Yesterday, (Sunday, Aug. 15th), former NFL star Emmanuel Ancho aired his interview with Lil Wayne on his YouTube channel. The candid interview was part of his Uncomfortable Conversations with Emmanuel Ancho series, and the pair spoke on some serious topics. Specifically, Lil Wayne opened up about mental health and attempting suicide at just 12 years old.

Lil Wayne (real name Dwayne Carter Jr.) revealed that his suicide attempt came as a response to getting in trouble with his mother during a half-day at school. He said his main thought at the moment was “I’m gonna show you,” and the rapper then revealed:

“I picked up the phone, I called the police. Yes I knew where she put her gun, and it was in her bedroom. And so I went in her bedroom, grabbed the gun. I already made the phone call, looked in the mirror. [Put it to my head], and of course I was like ‘Oh, no.’ Cause I got a little too scared, that was my head. Like ‘Nah, nah.’ Then I said ‘F**k it’ [and put it to my chest].”

He continued, sharing additional details of his suicide attempt:

“Biggie was on. I’m looking in the mirror, so you could look through the mirror and the television was behind me. So I was watching the video through the mirror. ‘One More Chance’ was on. And Biggie was already gone or something. So I was looking, I was like, ‘You know what?’ Start thinking I had to get myself mad and noticed that I didn’t have to. That’s what scared me. How I knew I had a mental health problem was when I pulled the trigger… Aimed for my heart and didn’t feel a thing, though. So I wasn’t going through any pain. It was the shock. I woke up to ‘Boom, boom, boom’–to the police knocking. And that’s what woke me up.”

Lil Wayne proceeded to share that a specific officer named “Uncle Bob” saved his life that day, as he prioritized saving the rapper’s life instead of searching the premises for drugs and weapons as the other officers did. He also credited God for not allowing him to die during his suicide attempt as a 12-year-old child.

The rapper then shared that he is now in a happy place within his life, but wishes more people acknowledged that mental health is a very real and serious issue.

You can watch the full interview down below.

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Authored by: Nick Fenley