Eyebrows raised earlier this year when Donald Glover quit the show ‘Community.’ The 29-year-old Atlanta native began as writer on NBC’s ’30 Rock’ (Tina Fey, Tracy Morgan) before beginning his five season stint on ‘Community.’ It was assumed that Glover would be focusing on his rap alter ego ‘Childish Gambino‘ sophomore album, ‘Because The Internet’ and new FX show based on his home town ‘Atlanta’ premiering next year. Earlier this week, in a series of candid and confessional Instagram notes, Glover shared his concerns, fears, and struggles from everything to his romantic relationship, acting career and album. Peep the messages below.
I’m afraid of the future…I’m afraid my parents won’t live long enough to see my kids
I’m afraid my show will fail…I’m scared my girl will get pregnant at not the exact time we want
I’m scared I’ll never reach my potential…I’m afraid she’s still in love with that dude
I feel like Im letting everyone down…I’m afraid people really hate who I am…I’m afraid I hate who I really am
I’m scared people will find out what I masturbate to…I’m afraid I’m here for nothing
I feel that this will feel to pretentious
I’m scared I’ll never grow out of bro rape…I’m afraid people will think I hate my race
I’m afraid people think I hate women…I hate people can say anything
I hate caring what people think…I’m afraid there’s someone better for you or me…I’m afraid this is all an accident
I’m scared I’ll be Tyrese….I’m afraid Dan Harmon hates me
I’m scared I won’t ever know anything again….I’m scared I never knew anything
I’m afraid this doesn’t matter at all….I didn’t leave Community to rap
I dont wanna rap, I wanted to be on my own….I’ve been sick this year, I’ve seen a bunch of people die this year.
This is the first time I’ve felt helpless, but I’m not on that….Kept looking for something–to be in with
Follow someone’s blueprint, but you have to be on your own.
The label doesn’t want me to release in December cause it’s not a holiday record and I’m not a big artist
I started the record last Christmas
Christmas always made me feel lonely, but it helped me restart the new year
I want people to [listen] to this album when everything’s closed
When everything slows down and quiet
So you can start over
I got really lost last year
But I cant be lonely tho
Cause we’re all here
I wanted to make something that says, no matter how bad you f-ck up, or mistakes
you’ve made during the year, your life, your eternity
You’re always allowed to be better
You’re always allowed to grow up
If you want
Glover has been mum since posting the notes.