Machine Gun Kelly Reveals He Had a Suicide Attempt While On The Phone w/ Megan Fox: ‘I Just Snapped’
Machine Gun Kelly is getting very candid and opening up about his struggles with mental health.
In his new Hulu documentary, “Life in Pink,” the “Emo Girl” singer detailed a dark night in July 2020 while he was mourning the loss of his father, who died on the one-year anniversary of his “Hotel Diablo” album release. About halfway through the documentary, Machine Gun Kelly, 32, (born Colson Baker) — who’s engaged to actress Megan Fox, 36, — revealed that he had a suicide attempt. He explained:
“I flew to my dad’s apartment to clear all this stuff out. I had this really weird interaction with this neighbor who told me all these things I didn’t want to hear. That f**ed me up even more because I couldn’t get closure on it. I wouldn’t leave my room and I started getting really, really, really dark.”
“Megan [Fox] went to Bulgaria to shoot a movie and I started getting this really wild paranoia. Like I kept getting paranoid that someone was gonna come and kill me. I would always sleep with a shotgun next to my bed, and like, one of the days, I just f**ing snapped.”
Machine Gun Kelly went on to detail the frightening event.
“I called Megan, I was like, ‘You aren’t here for me.’ I’m in my room and I’m like freaking out on her and dude, I put the shotgun in my mouth and I’m yelling on the phone and like the barrel’s in my mouth. I go to cock the shotgun and the bullet as it comes back up, the shell just gets jammed. Megan’s like dead silent.”
The scary moment was a turning point for the musician, who says he realized afterwards there was something “not right” with how he was feeling. He recalls Megan Fox and his 12-year-old daughter, Casie expressed great concern for Kelly.
“They simultaneously came at me with this like, ‘I want to like, be able to see in your eyes. I don’t want to like be talking to you through a veil anymore. I want to see you as my father and I want to see you as my husband-to-be.’ I was like, ‘I need to kick the drugs, for real this time.'”
Machine Gun Kelly has been open about his ups and downs over the past few years. In December 2020, he shared in an interview that he was seeking therapy for his struggles. He said at the time,
“Currently, my drug of choice is happiness and commitment to the art, rather than commitment to a vice that I believed made the art. I’m taking steps. I had my first therapy session last Thursday. That’s the first time I ever went, ‘Hey, I need to separate these two people,’ which is Machine Gun Kelly and Colson Baker. The dichotomy is too intense for me.”
In his new Hulu documentary, the “Bad Things” singer also reflects on the positive impact that Megan Fox has had on him.
“Megan became like the sun to me — like the one that I revolve around and gives me life and like helps me grow. It’s just like every fairytale that they never told you in school, that they never taught you. Like the passion between us is otherworldly. I know I’ve known her in so many other lifetimes.”
Machine Gun Kelly and his fiance, Megan Fox met on a movie set in March 2020 and were inseparable ever since. Kelly got down on one knee and proposed to the “Transformers” actress on January 11.
Megan took to Instagram and shared a video of the proposal and captioned the post:
“In July of 2020 we sat under this banyan tree
We asked for magic
We were oblivious to the pain we would face together in such a short, frenetic period of time.
Unaware of the work and sacrifices the relationship would require from us but intoxicated off of the love. And the karma.
Somehow a year and a half later, having walked through hell together, and having laughed more than I ever imagined possible, he asked me to marry him.
And just as in every lifetime before this one, and as in every lifetime that will follow it, I said yes.
…and then we drank each other’s blood
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If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 or go to suicidepreventionlifeline.org.