Karrine Steffans Opens Up About Having 3 Abortions
If it’s one thing that Karrine Steffans isn’t afraid to do, it’s speak her truth. In a new editorial post, the best selling author speaks candidly about having three abortions and why she’s afraid to tell her gynecologist. While she doesn’t specify whom she’s been pregnant by, she does drop a few hints and reveals why those relationships weren’t ideal for bringing a child into the world. She writes:
I have been married three times, and in the past year, aborted the two babies conceived with my third husband. God knows I loved him. God knows I still do. But it was his drug and alcohol addictions and the abuse I suffered from him that made it impossible for me to see myself stuck with him for the rest of my life. I figured the marriage could be undone, but our children would be forever, and they deserved a better father and a happier, healthier mother. He knew about the first abortion, which I had before our marriage, but I told him the second abortion was a miscarriage. That was a month after we were married, and I was terrified of what he might do if he knew I’d willingly aborted the child he begged me to have. I have never regretted that decision.
Fast-forward to right now, and I am in love with a man who I actually want to have a family with, but the funny thing is, my quest for improved fertility has less to do with him and more to do with my need to forgive myself for the miscarriages I have suffered in the past and the one abortion I have always regretted. It happened in the time between my second husband and my third. He was more than 10 years younger than I, but he was an old soul who fed me spiritually and shook me to my core. I cared for him. But three years into our relationship, when I found myself pregnant with his child, my lover — who was not yet 25 years old — panicked. I thought if I had the abortion, I could save us, but it destroyed me, and I could never bring myself to talk to him again. I would give anything to bring that baby back. I had those three abortions with the assistance of doctors I’d never seen before. I needed strangers to perform them.
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